The Value of Life, the Meaning of Death

Have you ever wonder why we live? What’s the purpose of our existence?

Most people wouldn’t even bother to understand their existence, since they know their limits or they give up understanding it, or they are just too dumb to fathom complex concepts.

We in the society have always countered suicidal events, why the kids or the persons want to die so badly to end their lives?

We know our limits but we couldn’t do anything to stop it, the sense of powerless is felt by many men. ...READ MORE

The Toll of Modern Functionality

I’ve seen a minimalist talking about his lifestyle today.

He aims for three major elements in his minimalist life–efficiency, optimization and multi-functionality.

These three goals aren’t that uncommon in terms of a modern man’s daily life.

But in essence, his idea of saving money is that, in order to become rich, you have to sacrifice.

But for modern day life, every single thing has a price. ...READ MORE

Depressing Shit

So basically, I dropped out of high school to avoid a full-on “get fucked or get stuck” sort of situation that is going to happen to most people here in China.

Here, after 6 years, I met my high school dorm mate. What happened to him? Exactly what I pictured would happen to him.

Got a university degree, got a job, got a girlfriend. The type of existential crisis bullshit you usually get when you follow the “steps”. ...READ MORE

Formless Excellence

What’s formless excellency?

Conventionally, excellence comes with disciplines, edges and refined techniques. What I see as quite a traditional way of being excellent.

An excellent carpenter defines his excellence by years of training, precision on his crafts and a sense of craftsmanship. The refined techniques in carpentry require strong disciplines, and the edges of such skills only come after prolonged hours of repetitions. ...READ MORE

Atomic Habits Notes

Chapter 1

  • Cue, craving, response, and reward cycle of habit formulation.
  • 1% better every day. Compound interest of betterment or degradation.
  • Trajectory, the direction of every decision matters.
  • Small changes often appear to make no difference until you cross a critical threshold. The most powerful outcomes of any compounding process are delayed. You need to be patient.
  • Success is about the winning of the system, not winning of the goal. You do not rise to the level of your goals. You fall to the level of your systems. Satisfaction comes from constant maintenance and revision of the system, instead of achieving milestones.
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    My therapist asked me to write something.

    It’s been awhile, but not very long, since last time I wrote something.

    I’m not quite sure what to write right now. As most things are depressing in my opinion, almost none can be seen as a triumph and be written as a subject.

    It does look urgent that at this moment, a new ideology is in dire need to provide some answers to world problems.

    The war between democracy and dictatorship grows stronger and stronger every day. ...READ MORE


    I’ve been starting to get into this belief, that the battle between democracy and dictatorship is a futile fight at the cost of people.

    I witnessed the practices in democracy, it’s far from the ideal of what a true democracy should look like. And during the coronavirus crisis right now, many practices happening in the western democratic countries resemble greatly to what China has done.

    It prompts me out of the box of the ideology battle. Running a country is not merely by a single righteous ideology, but a series of functional, scientific and correct physical implementations. ...READ MORE

    Manage Your Energy, Not Your Time Review

    Steve Wanner is a highly respected 37-year-old partner at Ernst & Young, married with four young children. When we met him a year ago, he was working 12- to 14-hour days, felt perpetually exhausted, and found it difficult to fully engage with his family in the evenings, which left him feeling guilty and dissatisfied. He slept poorly, made no time to exercise, and seldom ate healthy meals, instead grabbing a bite to eat on the run or while working at his desk. ...READ MORE