I feel like ever since the 2018 hospital incident, my health conditions haven’t been good.
Most of the times I have no idea what’s going on in my body and why do I have all the previously never seen strange behaviors.
At this moment, it’s quite clear that my body is yet again fucked.
And other than waiting for it to recover, there is not much I can do.
OF course, I want to finish what ì started. But I’m afraid I don’t have the means to do it anymore.
So far, get back a healthy body and later find a job is what I intend to do. But just recovering is already a big problem for me, so complicated and so hard to enforce.
There has always been moments of depression on me, and I am very vulnerable as well.
I wish I can get better.