So I would like to think of Tourette’s Syndrome as more of a hyper neurological system.
Most people with Tourette’s show very active responses/reactions towards outside stimuli, hyper reactions.
And stimuli can come from many angles–visuals, sounds, pain on your body, bad taste, bad smell, stress etc. Anything that can stimulate a person’s brain can be considered as a stimulus, and our brains intake a ton of outside stimuli every day.
After these few months, I feel quite exhausted as how things have unfolded.
As of now, the visa is in progress, however, I might not even have it on time before first day in college.
Who’s gonna take the blame? Whose responsibility is this? Every one who took part inside this operation has shown an extreme obnoxious side of themselves. And I have to bear the consequence… Fucking why?
My parents love to just not give it all in, stalling, holding, doing what they do best to undermine the process and cut down the quality. Giving half the price and ask people to do twice the job.
So, to a point where I am tired of participating in politics.
Politics is tiring, it asks you to choose sides, and choose diligently, as you need to behave what the particular side asks you to.
China. Yes, again.
China is a traditional country, it still pretty much is.
I am saying traditional, because the social structure hasn’t been changed much in the past century.
Hear this, what kind of population, produces what kind of government.
Date far back to the beginning of the 20th century, there were people sacred of a full-on machine invasion of humanity: highly intelligent artificial life forms that consist of mechanical parts and cogs will eventually take over the human world.
Such a horror towards things we don’t know.
To this day, this kind of fear still exists in many fictional forms–books, movies, music etc.
AI, to be frank, is not there yet. A mature AI is not going to be in this world in 100 years. So stop bothering.
Why would you immigrate?
The reason is simple, political reasons.
Mainland China is becoming more and more totalitarian with no end on sight, this bothers me.
And then, some Chinese would brush it off like nothing and tell me, “Why would you even bother with politics? As long as you can live, politics isn’t important.”
It is important, and involving in politics actively in a democracy can subsequently change citizens’ lives, whereas in a totalitarian state it’s impossible.
Ideas never die. An idea doesn’t take any form, but it can set a wildfire across people’s minds.
The world seems to underestimate too much on the power of ideas.
It’s like knowledge, the infinite amount of possibilities lied behind.
The only thing, is to make way for ideas to shine, to burn, to spread away like wildfire.
Under a heavily information controlled environment, none of these things is likely to happen.
I feel pretty tired lately.
Facing a lot of dumb problems, and the dumb people who make these dumb problems.
There is a huge gap between me and reality.
I’m at a very high up space, and the reality in China is insanely bad. Reality is really trying to drag me down as much as it can.
After just a few months in China, I’ve grown an immense amount of hatred towards my own country.
It’s pretty odd.
