I feel pretty tired lately.
Facing a lot of dumb problems, and the dumb people who make these dumb problems.
There is a huge gap between me and reality.
I’m at a very high up space, and the reality in China is insanely bad. Reality is really trying to drag me down as much as it can.
After just a few months in China, I’ve grown an immense amount of hatred towards my own country.
It’s pretty odd.
There are, roughly 100 countries currently abolished death penalty, and 55 other countries who do not.
Why there are so many countries believe that replacing capital punishment with imprisonment of life is better?
The argument against death penalty usually revolves around miscarriage of justice and somehow whether capital punishment can truly deter murders.
However, countries that still implement death penalty all seem to share common social and cultural backgrounds.
When I look back at my decision initially, I don’t regret it.
I never regret of choosing to tune out of the system and start my own adventure, and what’s been proven, is that, my choice was correct.
However, there is this “correct” path I once was supposed to take–a path that involved abiding by the rules.
When I firstly got off my high school due to tremendous mental pressure, I felt relieved. Later I pushed myself immediately towards applying for foreign universities.
A sense of entitlement clouds your judgement.
What’s more toxic than arrogance?
China has some serious moral problems that no one talks about.
I find that being with friends is the point of having fun, not competing. Competing with your friends when you are together takes out the fun of the natural activity and adds disgruntlement to yourself.
My parents are in no way good people.
My father is a selfish arrogant prick plus a bully to his family. My mother is timid.
This is a post from Harvard Business Review in 2015. It tackles into the extremely relevant side of Chinese society and ecosystem. This discussion based on trust is the fundamental difference between western societies and the Chinese one.
The depth it dug into is beyond the scope of normal Chinese interpersonal networks. Chinese themselves don’t understand these things and they do it unconsciously. And it is how they are raised mostly in this country.
Meritocracy originates from China, and was regarded as the top standard of political system of Ancient China.
However, today’s West look at CCP China as a political meritocracy system, opposed to their democracy system.
But my question is, is China really a political meritocracy?
If we can not figure out the reality of our political system, how do we even confirm that we are actually a meritocracy? A system that values talents and abilities instead of wellborn backgrounds and connections?
Guess it really leaves me no choice to do so.
I have been against doing this the whole time but the robotic and stupid system forced me to do so.
I have been contacting Langara College for weeks for my high school graduation and transcript, which I don’t really have, to spare me the process of these documents.
I presented them my work, my resume, called them several times, emailed all the contacts I have from that school, did all I can…
